Secret World

by Baudelaire

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This album was created in my bedroom with no budget, one microphone, a keyboard, and my voice. It is eclectic and experimental, a chronicle of my experiences over a 4 year period of time.
In some songs you can hear the sounds of suburbia, cars passing by, or rain subtly pattering on the windows. The lo-fi production creates a sense of intimacy, like you are in the room here with me listening to my story. For this reason, I would recommend listening on headphones (for optimal results, I used audio technica - ATH-MSR7 headphones). Unfortunately, professional mastering was out of the question for me due to the nature of this project.

I spent a long time in isolation crafting the secret world that existed inside my head and pulling it into reality, yearning for someone else to see the world through my eyes, craving empathy and connection.

This was a dark time for me.

Nobody believed in me. Nobody cared about my art. Nobody shared my vision. So I did it alone.

Through social media we craft a caricature of our true selves. We don a mask and live our lives through a lens.
'Nobody sees through the fake smiles and pleasantries. Nobody sees past the lies or past their phone screens.'
But really, many of us feel alone and trapped by our technologies. In the time of mass communication and media, it seems people are becoming more isolated than ever before.

Music was my escape, my meditation, my worship. I hope you too, may find solace or escape in my creation. I have held these secrets in my heart and let the pain consume me for too long. It is time to let go.

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released April 13, 2017

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Track Name: Trippin
Ehh I
Ehh I
Am lost in you

I am blue
I am scared
I am tired and bored
I am losing my mind
I am losing my time
I am lonely
I'm just tripping
Everyday

I am blue
I am scared
I am tired and bored
I am losing my mind
I am losing my time
I am lonely
I'm just tripping
Everyday

(I'm just trippin
Yeah
I'm just trippin
Yeah
Will you go with me?)

Take another hit if you need it, quick
(Yeah)
I won't lead you on if you go with me
(Yeah)
Freedom is my philosophy
(Yeah)
So take another hit, will you go with me?

Take another hit if you need it, quick
(Yeah)
I won't lead you on if you go with me
(Yeah)
Freedom is my philosophy
(Yeah)
So take another hit, will you go with me?
Track Name: Catch Me
I remember the day that I ran away
Seventeen, I was clean, but you took that away
I know you'll try to
Chase me down again
But I am free and I'm falling in love with the night again

I am so so so sorry that you don't get me
Imagine the love we could have had, how sweet it would be
I know you'll try to
Chase me down again
But I am free and I'm falling in love with the night again

So chase me
So chase me

Woah oh
Can you catch me?
Woah oh
Can you catch me?

Woah Oh
Can you catch me?
Woah oh
Can you catch me?
Track Name: Black Eyes
I know where I have come from
That ship was doomed to sink
I'm a blank sheet of paper
Covered with invisible ink
A character on display
Soul in a mausoleum
Who am I gonna play next?
I belong in a museum

Black eyes
Woahhh
Black eyes
Woahhh
See the world
Through black eyes

Look at what I have become
In this world I don't belong
I like a bit of mystery
Choose to believe the fantasy
Forget who you think I am
This is my master plan
I have the starring role
This secret world is mine alone

Black eyes
Woahhh
Black eyes
Woahhh
See the world
Through black eyes
Track Name: Secret World
Tell me
A secret
One I've never heard before
I'll tell you one of mine to settle the score

Tell me
A secret
Let me into your secret world
I'll show how deep the rabbit hole goes

Tell me
A secret
Track Name: Rose
I saw a rose
But I left it by the pavement
It wasn't mine to take
But I wanted it, I craved it

It's hard to grow
When you're trapped in your vase, in your prison cage
Pretty on the counter but inside
You're withering and dying

All the roses that you gave me
Thought you loved me, thought you'd saved me
All the roses that you gave me
Lights fading, colours changing

Pick the roses from the garden
Cut the stems one by one
Watch life fade from red to brown
Wither away and find a new one
Track Name: 0n and 1n
Good morning beautiful gorgeous darling
How did you sleep?
Did you wake to my alarm?

I left you some money on the counter for the train
Hope you enjoy work today
Hope it doesn't rain

It's a long trip this time
A fiji
Don't miss me too much
I'll see you very soon

I love you baby
Track Name: Vaseline/Dreams
Mr Mystery
Can you catch me
Never get your love for free
Always outside lookin' in
Do you even see me?

It's like dreaming
Every single time you're with me
But you're so slippery
I can't quite catch you on a good day

Mr Mystery
Can you catch me
Never get your love for free
Always outside lookin' in
Do you even see me?

It's like dreaming
Every single time you're with me
But you're so slippery
I can't quite catch you on a good day
Track Name: Day
I will be happy
I will be free
I will be me

I will be happy
I will be free
I will be me

I will be happy
I will be free
I will be me

One day
One day
One day
Track Name: Slow
I catch myself thinking that maybe
This isn't right
Push and pull me back in with your laughter and games
and your smile

I catch myself thinking that maybe
This could be life
If I don't lose my focus then maybe
This could be right

But I wanna go slow
I wanna go
Wherever you go
I wanna go

I wanna go slow
I wanna go
Wherever you go
I wanna go
Track Name: Creepin
Standing in the shadows
Watching waiting and still
Mask to hide your features
But I feel your grin

Do you want my satchel?
Do you want my skin?
Creepin in these back ways
And the fear sinks in

Mask to hide your features
Mask to hide your features
Mask to hide your features
Mask to hide your features

Take a trip down memory lane
Stare through the glass see the shattered remains
I feel the tremors before they begin
Count down I'm reaching the end
Take a pill and swallow the pain
Look in the mirror, what have you gained?
Delve deep inside of your brain
Take a hit and drift away

Was it a mirage?
A dream of a better place
Was it a mirage?
A man with a covered face
Was it a mirage?
Thirst taking over me
Was it a mirage?
Please someone rescue me
Track Name: Willow
Why are you telling me
That I'm not good enough
Blood sweat and tears
Rolling down my face

I am the wind and willow
I bend but never break
And I embrace it

Oh I try and I try and I try
But you don't give me time
I live and I learn to get by
But you never see me cry

I am the wind and willow
I bend but never break
And I embrace it

So I fixed myself up and left town
I walked, I trained, I flied
I told you I'd lose my pride
And you'd see me reach the sky

I am the wind and willow
I bend but never break
And I am changing

I worked at the piano for hours
I poured my heart out
I still make mistakes all the time
But I always choose to smile

I am the wind and willow
I bend but never break
And I am changing
Track Name: Rain on the Windows
He sleeps alone again tonight
Messy room reflects his cluttered mind
The bottle of pills on the dresser stares him down
He wonders how many days until the bodies found

Nobody sees through the fake smiles and pleasantries
Nobody sees past the lies or past their phone screens
He doesn't sleep, all he does is dread tomorrow
All he hears is rain on the windows

He wakes from another distant dream
He doesn't want to face reality
Another day working on his art for free
He wonders if he will ever be a somebody

Nobody sees through the fake smiles and pleasantries
Nobody sees past the lies or past their phone screens
He doesn't sleep, all he does is dread tomorrow
All he hears is rain on the windows